For the Love of Motherhood

On this Mother's day I am very grateful to be "Mommy" to these 5 beautiful children:

(June 2009)

I have a poem I want to dedicate to my 5 kiddos who make it possible for me to be a Mother, my mom, Mark's mom, and all other mom's out there this day. Happy Mother's Day!


Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooed on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom

As moms may we always be overwhelmed by the Grace of God

rather than by the cares of life!!!

I hope all "Mommy"s around the world have had a nice day surrounded by love and kindness!

This morning my family at home made yummy

Mother's Day pancakes and sent me a picture!

Wish Mason and I had been there to celebrate

with them, but it's the thought that counts!!

But since this Mother's Day we are apart,

I found joy in the miracle that our Mason

really is! I found joy in every moment we've

had together this special day. And most of all

I found joy in Mason's many smiles today. He

is finally getting back to his happy little self, little

by little!!! Here's one of my Mother's Day Smiles:

Mason has been much more content since we moved up to the third floor Friday evening. He is doing great with his O2 sats, blood pressure, heart rate, and his energy is starting to pick back up again! He is testing bites of new foods everyday too, but potato chips are still his favorite right now (french fries are in 2nd place.........not too healthy?!! That's ok! At this point, we just want him to learn to eat by mouth again!)

Tomorrow Mason will receive a large dose IVIg infusion treatment. This is to try and train his plasma to quit making the bad rejecting antibodies! DSA and HLA antibody blood tests will be run before and after the treatment. So by Wednesday morning we will know more about our plan of action and a possible discharge date from the hospital, depending Mason's antibody %'s.

Again I want to say how grateful I am for Motherhood! And I am very grateful to Mark, Sammi, Grandma's, Aunts, and neighbors who are helping fulfill my duties back home! I couldn't do this without you!

I will leave you "momma"'s out there with one last quote:

And THANK YOU to Kailtin, Preston, Braiden, Ammon, and Mason for being the BEST kids in the WHOLE WORLD! I am proud to be your mom!

(October 2009)

Happy Mother's Day!!!!